Ang’s Rants and Raves

It has been a heck of a week this week.  I’m really worried about my Mom, she gets short of breath when walking upstairs, and has to wait until Wed. to get her test done.  Today, I drive to work and my car decides to stop running while I’m driving and only 5 min. away from work.   I thought maybe I ran out of gas because my fuel gage hasn’t worked in over a year, but put a gallon in and it still doesn’t work.  I took it to the saline dealer (it was the only thing close) and of course, $1,100 in damages.  It is really a serious punch in the stomach.  They said it’d be $400 to get it running for me, but then I no longer have an automatic car starter which I really truly love to death. I really hate being a girl.  They are trying to tell me it looks like something ate the wires (a mouse is what they said)….wait a sec,  a mouse?? I don’t live in the country, so that makes absolutely NO sense to me.  
 I’m seriously bummed right now.  Things happen in three’s so i’m just waiting for my next one around the corner!!  I’m debating to start looking for a second job, because I have no idea how I”m going to afford anything at this point

My Mom called today from work because she was at the doctor and her bloodwork came back that she has lost three pints of blood and her doctor wants her to have a blood transfusion–he actually wanted her to be put in the hospital today, but I have no idea what happened, bcuz he didn’t! (flippin saginaw doctors)…. 

She now has to get two tests done, gastronoscopy and endoscopy next week..  it took me an hour to calm her down from work.  Ironically, I think my ulcer is back and have had horrible pains in my esophogus for two weeks.  I haven’t been able to be in the mood to eat anything or drink for that matter.  I have a dr. appointment in saline tomorrow afternoon and how weird it would be that my mom and i would both have to have a endoscopy done (thats how they found the last one). 

On a happier note, we have cut down our first real Christmas tree and decorated it! It’s so cute and little!  =D I have also bought my dress, corset, and cape so I feel a lot better about that…now, if we can just plan the date!!!

Since I’m cutting drastically on xmas this year and only getting my assistant something, I really feel like I need a crafting project to keep myself busy from looking at all the sales coming up!  I’ve been wanting to make a tshirt for school to wear on friday’s… the colors are blue and yellow, and I have tons of blue glitter but no yellow!  So I went to Michael’s today after my allergy shot and since everything is centered around xmas, the glitter section is non-existant! I found a small bottle of gold, which could pass for yellow, but it was 3.99 for a small thing… bummer!  So I’m back at home now pulling out my hair wanting to do something…so it looks like the niagara falls puzzle wins…:)

I read to the kids for PJ Reading Night. It was soo much fun. The kids had their cute PJ’s on and brought their teddy bears.  The principal wrote me a nice letter saying how great of a job I’m doing and how much the kids and parents love me and copied the letter to the superintendant.  He keeps begging me not to quit on him next year! :)… anyway, here’s a few pics….

and me and Kim dressed up for 1950’s day…

How is the Wonder Years not on DVD??? thats SO wrong!

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Saline is starting to grow on me.  At first, I thought I didn’t want to live in Saline and be separated from work..but the people, the town is all growing on me.  IT’s going to be a tough june and july, but hopefully we can find somewhere neat to live next year when the lease is up in saline since Steve and I both work there!  I love the little streets and places they have… and everyone is super friendly… so we’ll see!!! I don’t know, maybe its because I’m really starting to feel “grown up” these days……hanging out with brian and kristy and below and masha drinking wine and eating good food… being 30 isn’t so bad!!!!

Anyway, the date has been set!  August 9th is the reception and looking for a June wedding.  Mid-June that is.  Let the countdown begin.  I looked at dresses for the first time.  Wow.  It was the most amazing experience I have ever had.  It became real on Saturday.  I said to steve that no matter what you look like, what size you are, what colors you are, there is no way one person could look ugly in a wedding gown.  Sure, I found of ton “no’s” but when you slip that thing over your head, you really truly are a princess. I”m running out of time tho.  Appararently it takes 6 months for a dress to be made and then another month or so for alterations!! EEKS!!!!!

I can’t believe I”m more excited to be getting a tiara and whats even more crazy?? I’m going to buy some white ugg boots and a “lord of the rings” type cape with a white hood.  This cape has the cutest white muffs for my hands since its going to be snowing for our wedding. I want to wear it out all the time!!! If you would have told me 20 years ago I’d be getting married in the winter I’d laugh, but now I think its going to be exciting!!  yay!!! 

We got a great response back from a wedding coordinator, and went smaller than what our budget was! I don’t know what I’m more excited for–new zealand or australia.  I know all this penny pinching for the next 6 months will completely pay off the minute my feet lands on the ground…

Got my allergy shot today and ready to just start breathing again! (literally)

Thank god I have someone that is looking out for me right now. My Aunt in Australia is literally being my personal assistant on trying to book a wedding… she called me from aussie and said “calm down girl!” :).  she’s paying $75 to ship bridal mag’s from NZ so i can get some ideas on stuff… and now she’s emailed me a budget calculator, and telling me to email three wedding coordinators, three photographers to find out rates.  she has a friend that lives in christchurch that she’s going to call to see who locally can do my hair and makeup, etc.  then all thats left is a flower bouquet!  It’s not really as horrific as I thought with planning something…i just needed someone to play the role of my Mom with telling me to snap out of it and not shout at me!!! amazing how that happens!!!

she said its going to be super cold–possible blizzard conditions so we may have to bump up the july wedding to the last week in june!!

There’s nothing like finding out that your health insurance is way off. We just got an email today from HR.  I thought my copays were $20 and prescriptions $40.  Oh no!!! They have now bumped up to $30 and $60!!! $60 per prescription!! I’m sorry, but that is just insane! I might as well not have insurance!!!

Because of this, I know am suffering for my neck pain since I can’t go to the chiro, and oh well on the asthma! That’ll be $180.00 towards my allergy pill and two inhalers a month.  I can’t believe it.  Apparently they aren’t liable when they gave me TWO different insurance plans already…

I hate to say it….but after this year goes and I don’t get a raise, I’m going to have to start looking for something else  :( 

Thats how I feel.  Is my wedding over yet so I can go back to my normal life?? Oh thats right, I haven’t even started planning it yet!! I woke up at 4a.m. to my eyes just gushing with water and my throat clogged… didn’t get back to sleep, kept thinking of wedding stuff and getting more stressed…

anyway, I rarely drink coffee.  This morning with being so tired, i thought I’d go to mcdonald’s and get a small cofee.  I literally scrounge up in $1.06 in change (40 cents in pennies) and i get to work.. .I take the cap off and there is something floating in my coffee.. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.  It looks like a piece of food or something… either way I am soo bummed not only did I just feel like I threw out $1.06 (hey every cent counts these days), I’m at work and can barely keep my eyes open.

grr….

It’s official.  All of you that know my Mom know that I talk to her at least every day, sometimes twice a day,…the longest has been about 2-3 days tops (and that is pushing it). It has now been 8 days since I have talked to her…thats how mad she is about all this wedding stuff… the last time i saw her was when I went home to have a huge argument about how she isn’t obligated to pay any $ towards my wedding. What a bunch of crap.