sand and angry with myself
For the first time in my life I have overdrafted my account. I’m not sure what the fee will be as I have never done it before, but it hasn’t posted to my account.
As it stands, I have 7 bills that I have to pay with my next check leaving me with barely anything for the next two weeks. Looks like $1.00 soup cans are in my future. At least I still have a paycheck, as Elaine has no more. I can’t imagine what I’d do then. The realization that you really can travel is hitting me, that thats just not true. I should have never went to California. For how much the expense has cost me with two plane tickets and spending for the weekend, I have now hit the ‘in debt’ status again. Bills are coming out of my ears to the point, I feel a panic attack coming on.
Now I’m going to have to cut corners as I can this week. No more Applebee’s salad’s with sarah/laura, just go home and eat cheap. This weekend we’ve cut down to only driving to ohio, staying at lori’s, and just walking around downtown for the afternoon. Sarah and I have already locked into a room on the following saturday night that I just can’t get out of. I’ve now cancelled my Pittsburg trip, Pearl Jam (which my stomach is in knots about), and Tom Petty tickets. Hopefully I can pick up some shifts at Sullivan’s, maybe even on Mother’s Day if its not too late.
Thanks for reading this and letting me vent. The positive thing is that I have a job to help decrease this mess i put myself in, as two people I know don’t have one (or will not soon).
It happens….we call it our once a year OOPSY! No worries, just buckle down and you’ll get out of it soon. And summer’s coming up, so at least you can get out of the house and do cheap things like go for a walk or sit on the beach instead of big vacations or concerts. Not as much fun, but at least here you can find cheap things to do. Good luck!