sand and angry with myself
For the first time in my life I have overdrafted my account. I’m not sure what the fee will be as I have never done it before, but it hasn’t posted to my account.
As it stands, I have 7 bills that I have to pay with my next check leaving me with barely anything for the next two weeks. Looks like $1.00 soup cans are in my future. At least I still have a paycheck, as Elaine has no more. I can’t imagine what I’d do then. The realization that you really can travel is hitting me, that thats just not true. I should have never went to California. For how much the expense has cost me with two plane tickets and spending for the weekend, I have now hit the ‘in debt’ status again. Bills are coming out of my ears to the point, I feel a panic attack coming on.
Now I’m going to have to cut corners as I can this week. No more Applebee’s salad’s with sarah/laura, just go home and eat cheap. This weekend we’ve cut down to only driving to ohio, staying at lori’s, and just walking around downtown for the afternoon. Sarah and I have already locked into a room on the following saturday night that I just can’t get out of. I’ve now cancelled my Pittsburg trip, Pearl Jam (which my stomach is in knots about), and Tom Petty tickets. Hopefully I can pick up some shifts at Sullivan’s, maybe even on Mother’s Day if its not too late.
Thanks for reading this and letting me vent. The positive thing is that I have a job to help decrease this mess i put myself in, as two people I know don’t have one (or will not soon).