The eye doctor
Most people fear the dentist, I fear the eye doctor. Yet again, my fears have come again. My eyes have changed…now only have they changed, they did dramatically. At least this time, I didn’t lose my emotions. Last year I started crying and ask the doctor if I was going blind. He said no, you already are blind. My eyes went from -7.5 to a -9.5 thats a HUGE jump over the last six months.
This is the 2nd doctor who told me i shouldn’t read as much as possible or use my vision as much. Hense, no computer work after work, etc. That its a strain on my eyes. This is a HUGE annoyance for me. Don’t read?? Why don’t you just put me on disability. Two doctors ago, i was told I need to get a job out in a field, or something that doens’t require to use my eyes. What job these days DONT use a computer? I’m so frustrated. I’ve had glasses since I”ve been in 1st grade and every year they’ve changed. There is only a 3 year gap in my life from 21-23 that my eyes didn’t change.
This doctor is telling me its the type of contacts I”m using–they are too big for my eye. I’ve worn these lenses since I”ve been 15 and out of the 10 doctors i’ve gone to, not one suggested that. He immediately made me take them out and throw them out. Throw them out! i kept saying “what??” I paid $150 for these suckers and you want me to just throw them out?? ugh. my stomach was sick after that.
He then said that my dreams of having lasik surgery were squashed. It seems that people are having problems that had lasik 8 years ago and are having to get cornea transplants. UGH. The older I get, the more upset I become. I ran home afterwards and cried for 45 minutes. One more change and they don’t sell my contacts any higher and i”ll be back in glasses. My glasses are a -12 which suck even more.
Yup this is a complete whining blog, but maybe once I get this out I can relax. I have to go back next week and my mom wants to come with me. She thinks I”m too emotional to speak up and that she wants to talk to the doctor. We’ll see how that pans out.
