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This ALWAYS happens. I have this wonderful blog typed up and bam! stupid pop up blocker or I forget I have this window up, open an email and click on the link and completely lose my blog. That sucker took me 20 min. to type up and here I am back at square one.
Topic: What do I want to do with my life.
It’s really hard to define what makes you happy. For some, its a given, or almost a natural thing. After having this topic come up with Steve, I realize that there are things that make me happy, but what “ultimately” makes me happy. I love animals, but at the same time, I could never be a vet or even work at an office because I would be sad if one came in that was dying, or run over by a car, etc. I couldn’t handle it myself. I think I’m just too emotional to be in a job like that. Volunteering at a shelter, I know I’d want to take all of them home. I get attached to easily. I love going to zoo’s, but just don’t think I’d want to work at one.
I feel like I need to focus on something part-time. Try it out, see what happens. I don’t know if the things i’m interested in are something that I just like to do, or something that is what makes me “me”. I was happiest when I was 18, taking a modern dance class, playing tori, I actually wrote a few songs, but am sad to say I have yet to of found my music. I can see the sheet music in my head that I actually composed, but didn’t find it when i went home last weekend, being aroundn animals, and working out. So I’ve been slowly checking into these things again.
there are many dance co’s around the area. After looking at all the websites, it looks like if you get involved in dance, its on a fall basis and lasts for fall and winter. The price is absolutely out of this world! $55 a week! a WEEK! amazing. I wonder how many ppl pay that. So my next step is to look at emu or another community college outside of AA. I think thats half my problem. AA is so ritzy they prob. pay that to get into dance. I’m also worried that my age is against me when I got to dance co. (of course unless i want to take swing or ballroom-but realy have no interest in that).
Next is piano. I looked at purchasing a keyboard… the cost again is more higher than expected. I don’t want a cheap one or expensive, and middle of the road is still going to cost me. I think at thsi point I am struggling one what I”m going to do. My absolute #1 goal this year is to see if I’m a candidate for lasik. If I am, the procedure could cost me $5,000. I really need to weigh out my needs and wants at this point.
Finally there is working out. I would love to be an aerobic instructor but I’m not sure the steps on how to get certified. I know there is also a major for this in college as well, and not sure if having 4 years of college is something that peaks my interest . It’s something I do after work, but I don’t know as if its something I “want” to do full time. (can you be full time in reality?)
so here I am. Contemplating everything. I never took a career test in high school and wish I could so that I could at least get lured in the right direction. I know what I”m doing now, is something I dont want to be doing 3-4 years from now. It’s not going after it thats a problem, its the realization of WHAT you want out of life is more the challenge. After you realize it, then you can take your next steps. Thats why I’m flustered.
If you want to become an instructor of some type check out the parks & Rec dept. in your area. Here in GR you can become certified to teach pilates, and they also have a class on “How to Become a Fitness Instructor”. You should also ask around at local fitness centers, like the YMCA. I know their instructors have to be certified….and most teach 3-6 classes a week. It’d be something to check into. I should ask Holly how she got into the dance program she’s in. She does ballet 2 nights a week….and I know she doesn’t pay that much! Good luck!
You are SO not alone! I went into Technology all gung-ho. I loved it for a long time, but I’m so board with it. I loved the teaching aspect of it, the rest I could do without easily. However the jobs don’t pay my bills anymore for a single home owner without a roommate. Everything else I want to do either involves going back to school, which I don’t have the time or money for, or involves accepting less money for a while. I’d love to start my own busines….. be a personal shopper or professional organizer. Oh my God! I’d LOVE my job! Hell, in all honesty, I’d like to be a writer. Some sort of columnist who does a weekly article on something funny about life. On Saturday’s I think it is, one of the morning shows out of New York always has a black lady near the end that sits on a stool and contemplates something about life. I LOVE her! She’s funny, but truthful, makes you THINK! I’d love to be that lady! I have an electronic copy of a book that you should read. I got it from Christine Hassler author of Twenty-Something, Twenty-Everything. The book I’ll send you is about how to find your Passion at Work. And also, you need to pick up Christine’s book Twenty-Something, Twenty-Everything: A Quarter Life Woman’s Guide to Balance and Direction . It’s about a “Quarter Life Crisis”. I’d give you mine, but it’s one of the 4 I’ve started and not finished. I should really get on that! Also check out her website at http://www.twentysomethingtwentyeverything.com/ and you can sign up for her web site. Christine worked with me over the phone for 6 weeks as a career coach. She’s awesome! And she’s 28!