Ang’s Rants and Raves

It figures that I decide to give up pop until March 25th and work out at least 3 times a week that my body says “haha, I”m going to get sick so you want to drink pop and you can’t work out”.  I’m DYING.  Yesterday I went to the gym and it absolutely killed me to be on a treadmill for 30 minutes. About 15 min in, I needed my inhaler and 20 min in I started getting a side pain and my throat was on fire.  This absolutely sucks.  I woke up today with my sore throat still there, and as the morning went on, I have now horrible sinus pressure in between my nose and the bottom of my head. :(.  ugh!  I’m taking it easy tonight and not going to work out, but I have fears that I’ll only progress worse.  I’ve been taking the zicam religiously every 4-6 hrs but I dont think its a “cold” since there is sinus drainage.  I just want to be home right now and sleeping. 

Ugh. I just don’t have anything else to write about right now. 

 

Thats how I felt when I woke up this morning.  Completely gross.  I stepped on the scale and realized I have gained a few pounds more than I’d like.  I’m not sure if its the extra pounds, or feeling completely “white”, or what, but I look at my skin and it just looks terrible.  I don’t feel good right now.  I’ve been eating absolute crap in the last 2 months, not working it off, and becoming a hermit. 

I think this happens to me every winter around this time, I start to get the spring fever bug, with wanting to clean out everything in site, and get back in shape.  I think I have some motivation as I’m going to California in the last weekend in May.  I’m sooo disappointed in the uofm gym.  There are no weights, no circuit training area, just a room full of cardio machines (that you have to wait for a long time to use), basketball courts, pool and track. I’m going to check in to bally and see how much it would cost to have a personal trainer for a couple months to help whip me back….maybe even see a nutritionist.  I know my diet is terrible, especially with my IBS, and I haven’t been eating what I should.  Even “healthy” foods can trigger an attack, such as apple’s skin, and I just don’t even know what I can eat anymore! I’m glad that Steve is a support about this, unlike a past relationship who did nothing but whine about trying to eat better.

So there’s my pact.  I have a slumber party in march that I’m hoping a few of the girls will help motivate.  I just wish it was warmer so I could do more outdoor things and not rely on going to a gym.  It’s not so much the gaining weight, its the way I feel.  Just gross. 

It’s been almost a month since I’ve been out to the “bar” and honestly the thought still makes me not want to go.  I have absolutely no ambition to be around that.  I wouldn’t mind going to a club, just to dance and sweat, but then I think back on the last time I was there with my girls, and all you do is get molested by boys–which is a huge pet peeve/annoyance of mine. But than I think about what I just wrote and think, whats wrong with that?? About 85% of my close friends don’t go to the bars either anymore.  I know if I go home and see Heather M., I’m at Barnes and Nobles sitting in the starbuck area, drinking coffee and reading magazines and commenting on articles. 

So…this weekend I’m going to go to the grocery store, remove crap from my cupboards, read up on some healthy eating with IBS, and begin my routine on Monday. 

 

I had a pact with myself that for the month of Feb. I would not go to a show/bar/concert, go bowling, and try at least 2 new things off a menu.  I have almost accomplished my goal.  Last Saturday I caved and surprised Steve at the Cleveland show, but I couldn’t help it, I missed him so much.  I think in leiu of it, I’m given myself a doens’t count simply because it was something I wanted to do and not felt like I *had* to do–which is why I gave it up in the first place.  Last night I went bowling with Steve and had a GREAT time.  It was something I haven’t done in years and it made me miss working at the bowling alley at WMU.  It was such a fun job, being able to play whatever CD’s you wanted to, throwing a ball every now and then when it was slow, putting the bumpers on the lanes for the kids, decorating a pin for the birthday boy/girl, giving them a tour of the back and having a kid throw a ball down the lane so all the others could see what happens to the ball once its knocked down.  Being called “Miss Angie”. ahh.. that was SUCH a blast.  The simplest things are sometimes the best things.  Now its been torn down and made into a 2nd floor bookstore. Such a shame! 

As for the new foods, I went to Olive Garden and had fried meat ravioli.  I must say I’ve been anticipating this for almost a year now, as I had it back at a bar in kzoo and loveeed it.   Once I ate it, I wasn’t impressed.  there was no cheese–just meat!  It was much too dry for my liking, but then after I ordered I realized its the cheese ravioli I craved.  The second was a monti crisco sandwhich at Bennigans.  It wasn’t too bad, but I’m not sure as to if I’d order it again.  I like having lettuce and mayo on a sandwhich and this was more of a grilled ham&cheese sandwhich on bread that was fried.  I’m not much for rasperry’s and this had a rasperry dipping sauce which actually tasted like it was on the sandwhich already..  but I can’t completely rule it out as for not ordering it again!

It’s almost March and I’m still not completely excited about going to the bars.  I feel like I need something refreshing and new and the smell of smoke and drunk boys just doesn’t appeal to me. I’m not sure of as to what it is that I want, but the smell of coffee at barnes and nobles and finding a nook and reading sounds much better.  I just can’t wait until spring when I can get on that bike of mine and go explore or take a drive!! This winter has been a tough one for me mentally!

 

Guess I’ll never be able to say I’ve been to the Detroit Zoo :(.  How sad its closing after 75 years. Pretty soon the whole city will be gone due to “budget”.  lets not hold anything back.  *sigh*

Wow I haven’t realized I haven’t posted in awhile.  I’m trying to think what I missed!  Wed. I went to Kzoo to visit my friend Luacia.  We ate at my favorite place, Kansas City Grill and it made me realize how GOOD the food is again.  I love the barbie dip that they have, and must admit I hogged a lot of it.  (sorry lou!).  We talked about happenings and she let me know that my old boss in scholarships was leaving.  It really hit me being back there. I reallly miss it.  I don’t miss kzoo, I don’t miss my “job” but I miss my old coworkers to death. They still write to me very often to make sure things are OK…  She asked me if I’d come back and I really had to stop thinking about it.  I’m wondering if I should just cut the town off all together, as I was sad my entire way home.

Thursday I had a super lot on my mind and couldn’t concentrate on anything.  My aerobics class was horrible as I couldn’t stop thinking about everything but aerobics.  Afterwards Sarah and I grabbed Big Boy and the week of traveling started catching up with me.  I went to bed the second I got home.

Friday, I wasn’t feeling well and cancelled my plans with Katrina.  Brienne and I decided to surprise our boys and go to their last show in Cleveland, OH on Sat..  We went to Michael’s and loaded up on some craft supplies and was determined to make my first black shirt.  After ruining my iron and ironing board, the shirts didn’t turn out good at all. (boyfriend please send me pics so I can post!).  I think that the iron ons really only work well with white shirts.  Hopefully the spring stuff is out now and I can go get a cheap tank top to make for the next time. 

Friday we stayed up all night making our shirts and giggling about how we need to start making them for the shows and trying to sell them.  Once we get a pattern figured out, we might just start wearing them for advertisements!

Saturday I woke up fairly early and headed to saginaw to take Zeke back and pay for my taxes that were done.  I was home only about 2 hrs and turned around and came back and got on the road.  We seemed to be making good time but then it started to snow and was SUPER cold.  We ended up missing an exit, without realizing and ended up a good hour out of our way!   Patrick called and text’d brienne several times through the day and I had to be quiet so he wouldn’t catch on that we were in the car.  finally at 10:30, we walked through the door and was spotted by Justin, whom Steve saw going over to us and ran over and gave me lots of kisses before I could even give the bouncer my ID! It was super cute.  Afterwards we went back to the hotel and crashed. 

Sunday I was super tired and we drove back in the morning for brienne to be to work.  Steve and I took a super long nap and went to pizza hut for dinner.  ahhh… It’s so nice to have him back!  I think thats all I’m going to say about that.

Happy belated Valentine’s everyone! After a extremely excrutiating (sp) long day at work, at 4:30pm I was delivered a half dozen long stem roses from my wonderful boyfriend.  They are soooo gorgeous. It’s the first time anyone has ever delieved flowers to me at work (besides my friend Heather M. years ago on my birthday). 

Last night I celebrated the evening with Lori in Ohio.  Stupid me didn’t forward my directs to her to make sure they were alright.  Yahoo and Mapquest had two different ways of going, and stupid Ang decided to chance Mapquest.  One of my directions was to go to I-80 which was CLOSED! ugh!! After getting lost several times (the detour signs were TERRIBLE), it finaly took me about 2 1/2 hours to finally get to Bennigan’s where Lori was.  The service was unbelievably slow as it took 30 min. to bring us our dessert! But it was a good thing I wasn’t in that much of a hurry.  On my way back, the roads were clear and I got the right directs (shoulda followed yahoo) and it took exactly 2 hrs to get home– not bad:)

I’m super tired this morning and driving to Kzoo tonight.  I’m taking a 1/2 hour lunch today so I can get out at 4:30 and get there by 6.  Luacia and I are going to see Cayote tonight and have dinner at my fav. restaurant kansas city grill which I have been missing since I’ve moved (thats not only thing).  So I’m stuck here for 8 hrs, with only one piece of paper for my “to do” at work today *sigh*.  I just don’t know how much more I can take.  Some days I just wish I could get into a time machine and go back to September and change it around.  I can’t believe its been 5 months and I still haven’t had anything to keep me busy–and to think the person before me was in this for 3 years!

 

This weekend I kept myself pretty busy running around getting a few errands done I’ve been putting off.  Friday was pretty yucky driving home.  I remember now how much I dispise driving back to Saginaw on a friday at 5pm.  It takes me a good 2-2.5 hours to get home–I might as well be leaving from kzoO! People were driving really slow near flint as the snow was coming in like mad on the highway..i got into town and didn’t realize how slick it was out and went through a red light.  Oops!

Saturday I went to a bunch of stores and washed a ton of steve’s blankets to put away to storage.  Sunday I went over to my grandparents duplex and tested out the washer/dryer situation. The washer washed OK, but made  a REAL loud noise as it did my clothse–heard all the way up to the 2nd floor of the townhouse!  The dryer took 40 min to dry 3 towels—three! So it doesn’t look promising moving it into my basement.  Steve’s calendar is full for Feb. and so I have no way of getting help to move it to and from.

I have my kitty with me this week.  Mom told me to watch Lisa Loeb’s reality dating show.  I didn’t realize she is 38 already!! wow does the time fly–she doens’t look it tho’.  It’s on E! at 10pm. I recommend it, its quiet humourous.  Zeke woke me at 5:20a.m. screaming for tuna but I didn’t budge. I want to try and braek him of the habit my mom started on giving him tuna so early in the a.m.  Hopefully it’ll work..–but I’m sure will go right back in the routine when he goes back to saginaw.

Today is yet another boring day at work.  At least its already 3:30!!!

Well today starts the day that my man will be gone for ten days to go on the road and play his drums and jam.  After a star went misaligned last night, all was well in the early morning hours.  I woke up extremely happy this morning and the feeling of “i can do anything”.  I really want to take these next ten days and really feel like I’m doing something.  As usual, my normal winter days I have completely become a hermit-not that this is a bad thing. I get lots of rest and watch plenty of movies that I’ve been getting from Netflix. (Awakenings was a long lost movie I seen years and years ago and watching it again reminded me how good it really was).  I have a “to do” list started of things ranging from going to a movie with my mom to hopefully meeting Lori halfway on Valentine’s Day in Ohio somewhere on Tuesday.  I still haven’t ate something off a “normal” menu, but its only the 9th of the month so there’s plenty of time for that!

The basement is a good project to think about.  I’m having a slumber party in March, and would love to have it complete in time for the girls to arrive. Decked out and a good “living room” feel.  I have good news that i might be getting a used washer/dryer from my grandparents duplex that some renters moved out and left.  Hoping that my uncle will come down in the midst of it and maybe get some cable lines down there so we can hook up the cable to the TV.  I’m sure the basement will be a better place to go in the summer months when it gets warm…altho  my lease is up July 31st,  I’m wondering how many hot days that will hold.  I’m yet again dreading the time to come if I have to move again, but getting that out of my head this second.

Anyway, to get back on track, just a few thoughts in my head. Just wish it was Friday so I could get started!

 

For a recap of my weekend, you can view my myspace blog.

Yesterday, I actually have a project to do at work. The same one I had last semester that took me two days.  This time I’m determined to make it last three! :). I just need to stop typing so darn fast! 

I was in a cleaning mood. I got out of work and cleaned the bathroom, kitchen/floor, dusted the living room and picked up my room! Than I moved on to Steve’s to help get his more organized.we moved some of his things in my basement for storage since his room was so jam packed, you couldn’t walk to the bed without running into something.  He went through some of his mail/magazines/etc. and we boxed them all up together and a chair and lamp that was in his room taking up a lot of space.  After vacuuming and dusting the room looks amazing. We also put together his new bed stuff that I bought him for his birthday (as an early present of course) with the pillows, sheets, down comforter, and cover.  It looks AMAZING :).  A lot more roomier and the feeling of wanting to be in there longer—i wish I would have snapped a before and after picture!

About 1a.m. I was ready to crash and now its Tuesday.  The morning is going by sooooo very slowly. I had a smoothing for breakfast instead of my normal toast and I’m already starving.  2 more hours yet to go before I can eat..Hopefully I’ll make it through!

AND for anyone wondering. It has been 4 weeks and 3 days and still no sign of my $35 from Best Buy.  7 months since I turned in the points.

 

Last night Steve and I went to the Detroit Pistons game.  It was sooo much fun.  I haven’t been to a game since I believe 97 or 98 (I don’t believe I have the ticket!).  It was so exciting because this time I was familiar with our players and I adore Rip Hamilton.  We ended up kicking butt too.  I believe there was some big football player in the stands as well (Britton?–don’t know much about the NFL).  Since the superbowl is coming up, P.Diddy was also to be rumoured to be in the audience, but that was only heard from the radio.  I highly recommend going, its super fun!

This weekend I plan to sit back, watch oodles of movies, hopefully finish up Season 4 of Six Feet Under and just VEG.  I don’t think I’ve held an entire weekend of doing nothing but NOTHING :)  It’ll be a nice break before Steve leaves for his tour as well.

Work has been pretty slow still.  Today I got to call a Dad back about a scholarship question, and I have 23 envelopes that need to be mailed. Pretty exciting stuff–hold me back from all this excitement!

2:44pm It’s pretty sad when I’m actually looking forward to the doctor’s appointment tomorrow since I’ll only have to work 4.5 hours on a Friday—and even that I’m sure will pass by slowly.

Thats about it for now.  I think I’ll post again after the weekend.